Finding Balance…

It’s funny really….to be planning a blogging conference and to simultaneously struggle with even getting blog posts written.  I mean, I’ve had a couple here and there, but I tell you what…balance isn’t something that gets handed to us on a silver platter is it?

So that’s what I’ve been trying to do. Trying to find balance…and realizing that it’s not something that’s so much found, as created. It is intentionally stepping away from my phone screen, and computer screen, and to engage my life.  There is part of me that thrives in planning Allume, but there is a part of me that’s been getting swallowed up in it all too.  I find myself reaching and grabbing out for Jesus to fill me up, and to fill my kids and my husband…because most days, I find myself really drained.

I fell asleep 20 minutes into a movie with my husband last night just a little bit after 9.  I’m just really tired all the time.

But 2 weekends ago, we escaped the city and high speed internet, and I took 2 days and breathed in friendships and mountain air and felt my soul fill up again.

We played outside with friends, and flew kites, and foolishly ate s’mores AFTER bathtime.  And I loved every single second.

On the way home, we stopped at one of my favorite antique spots ever, and I found a vintage scale for just the right price (after looking for years for one!)  And it’s my favorite color even!  Sometimes God just likes to give us good, albeit unnecessary, gifts.

And in the past week, I spent a couple of days ignoring laundry so that I could immerse myself and my kids into some creative projects…and I built a coat rack from a cool salvage piece of wood, and just 2 days ago I built a table from a vintage French wine crate and a piece of barnwood.  And those things felt good.

And I didn’t take a million pictures to illustrate how to do it…I just did it to enjoy the process for myself.  (You’ll be pleased to know though that it really was as simple as cutting a board into equal sizes and screwing them to the side of the crate and then sanding and waxing the entire thing.)

So lately….I’ve been living, and sometimes I’m trying to blog about it…and sometimes I’m just not.  And I think that’s ok….even if you’re planning a blogging conference.